FIX YOU by Coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Fix me,
Please..

I'M BORED..

WITH OR WITHOUT YOU by U2

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you

Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails you make me wait
And I wait without you

With or without you
With or without you

Through the storm we reach the shore
You give it all but I want more
And I'm waiting for you

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

My hands are tied
My body bruised, you're got me with
Nothing to win and nothing left to lose

And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away

With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

I cannot do this anymore. I cannot follow the same path again to fight for my self. Just like the movie 'It's All About Love', there was something in Alice sentences that make me woke up & smell the coffee.

I fought to stay with you because I love you, but you cured me of that.

With or without you, it just feels the same. The misery still come and won't go away. Maybe having me is not enough for you. Or maybe love itself doesn't mean anything to you..

LONELY GAL

Had a very bad dream last nite. Is it a sign also?

Dijemput Abi & Mahen jam 12an, buat ke rumah Icha karena ada acara makan-makan ulang taun Papa-nya Icha. Lumayan lama juga di rumahnya Icha. Apalagi pas di depannya ada keriaan 17 Agustusan. Hehe.. Menjelang sore kita ber-4 ke Vertex mau nyari DVD, eh yang ada aku & Icha malah nyasar di butik kecil pas di sebelah Vertex itu. Icha langsung beli 1 tubetop & 1 rok lucu. Aku? Liat-liat dulu deh, padahal pengen banget sama tas kuningnya itu!

Balikin si Icha, aku & Abi didrop Mahen di Dago karena Mahen mau soundcheck di Fame. Ya aku & Abi ke Starbucks CiWalk janjian sama Erika. Ternyata ada Sapta, Imoel, & Yudha juga. Asli pembicaraan hari ini sangat seru! I learn a lot from today's coversation..

Makan dulu di Bakmie Tasik Gardu Jati baru balik sendirian. Asli aku pusing banget! My head really hurts a lot, I can't take it anymore. Aku sampe minum 3 Panadol untuk ngilangin sakit kepala keparat ini.

God, I feel so LONELY! How could You do this to me??

ZOMBIE ALL OVER AGAIN

That's what I feel rite now. Aku jadi zombie lagi. Can't think. Can't eat. Can't sleep. Can't do anything as usual. Pathetic isn't it? To go back to the same place I used to be after all this time? Huh..

But I managed to work. At least beberapa tugas dijalanin hari ini. Aku berhasil ke BCA untuk ngurusin pembayaran hosting. & aku juga berhasil nelepon sana sini untuk ngurusin kerjaan. Tapi rasanya blank aja tetep. Empty, it hurts..

Sore-sore aku udah nggak kuat ada di kantor. Akhirnya aku mutusin kabur ke rumah Icha aja & sharing some of my problems to her. Icha kasih komen yang sama kayak dulu. That I don't deserve this. I deserve something much much better than this after all my sacrifices & devotion. Hmm..

Sempet nyangsang di Blend sama Icha, still discussing the same issue aja. Sampe akhirnya aku pulang jam 11an dari rumah Icha & feel so lonely again..

Waktu balik dari rumah Icha, aku sempet nge-batin dalam hati "What the hell should I do?". & it turns out ada lagu Rio Febrian di radio, lagu yang duluu banget ngiringin awal kisah baru dalam hidupku. Is it a sign or something?